Post 8 - The Songs of My Ancestors
October 31, 2024
Intro
This writing builds upon the theme of sound through the lens of observation and curiosity. It steps outside of my main artistic creativity, but follows my appreciation for music and the never ending spiritual journey of self-discovery.
My art practice is one of sensing the forces of curiosity and exploring what arises from deep within myself and my experiences.
This perception has been with me since my earliest days, but became more noticeable when I naturally opened to spirituality in high school. I was introduced to meditation and some modes of spiritual perceptions via a family member. Because I was not raised with religion or any concept of a specific Higher Power, I was able to reflect on these experiences and conclude a meaning of it all for myself.
Expanding My Interests
As I grew and found myself entering high school, I felt drawn to some unexpected topics that I had never thought about. In my first year, I was placed into a higher level Spanish class with a few close friends. Up until this point I only ever thought about Spanish as being a requirement for school and left it at that. The teacher was from Spain and had education and fluency in a few other European languages, one of them being French. She also organised trips to go abroad for language and cultural experiences for students serious about learning a second language. I feel this was a catalyst that activated a higher level of curiosity, namely and surprisingly the French language. Although I had to study Spanish, I couldn’t ignore this new language. I became obsessed and had to reading everything on it. French was the catalyst into the rest of the world beyond America.
Another language experience happened again a year later when a friend from summer camp introduced me to the Russian language. However, this introduction not only ended up sending me to study linguistics in university, but it also opened a deep portal into a part of my spiritual self.
Since I was already in love with these two languages, I decided to travel further through the melodies of other foreign music on my own. The next three languages that really spoke to me were Norwegian, Danish, and Finnish. I feel that these three were the beginning of my intentional self-discovery.
I Can Hear My Ancestors
My family is small and has some complicated connections. The stories of the ancestral journey of many lives converging into the one that I experience today was never really talked about. I can remember the rare recitations by my parents, “there’s English, Irish, German…”. On top of this, there was remarrying on one side that lead to a 25% gap in the known oral heritage, and estrangement from my maternal grandfather.
In just shy of 10 years later, I did not expect to discover that this missing 25% of my ancestry would directly relate to my prior language obsessions. Through an Ancestry DNA test in 2020, it was confirmed that I am mainly descended from English, Irish, and German ancestors. I felt a sense of excitement and a loving, invisible presence surrounding me. However, the rest of the results immediately revealed the never spoken about mystery of my grandfather’s ancestry. I was shocked to see Norwegian, Danish, and Finnish ancestry making up the mystery of my family tree. Now my fascination with foreign music in these specific languages made sense. I now believe that my ancestors were singing to me through the time and space of music.
All Is Now
As I reflect on these experiences, it feels to me that there is an intelligence within each of us that when completely open to, acts as an ‘inter-dimensional radio’. Its antenna is so perceptive and able to receive any signal it is tuned to. I have come to believe that one’s ancestral history, journeys, languages, and culture, are available to each successive generation if you can listen closely enough within.
To this day, I am still deeply fascinated by the French, Russian, and Finnish languages. Although I do not descend from French or Russian ancestry, I still adore their languages. From several experiences in university, I believe that I have experienced a previous life in or near Russia because of my fascination with the language and culture. One day I also hope to finally seriously study the Finnish language. Even though it’s not an Indo European language, I am determined and up for the challenge!
These personal realisations still feel unreal to me, but I treasure them deeply. Much love and gratitude to my ancestors who came from England, Scotland, Ireland, Germany, Norway, Denmark, Spain, Mexico, Czech Republic, and Finland.
Thanks for reading!
-Garrett Porter